Yeah, I watch my weight, alright

I had my first weigh in at the REAL Weight Watchers today. +.2lbs. +!!!!! I couldn't believe it. After all my hard work, after all the exercise and the eating good, I'm still gaining. Fuck. I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to eat a cheeseburger and fries. I went to the store and bought Progresso soup. Mary suggested it. It's a lot, and only 2 points per can. I need to follow the good health guidelines. Our leader says that it's because I'm working out, but I still hate it. I just hate it. I want to be smaller. I want to weigh LESS. I'm just pissed. I'm going to be fat forever. Weight Watchers will make a ton off of me. I'll be a member forever. All the others will be at their goals and I will weigh more. I feel discouraged. I bet no one else in that room gained. Everyone was so happy with their loss. Fuck. I really am going to be fat forever. I hate this.